Three days at home sick. First day was awesome (no computer.) Second day was lonely (with computer...huh.) Third day was awesome and lonely.
Do you ever find yourself deprived of something, notice major changes in its absence, and struggle with deciding whether that something is a good thing or not?
Talking to other human beings is a good example. Or rather, the thing I'm actually talking about.
I have always thought of myself as a very social person, and for the most part I have always acted like one. I think I went overboard in college with the socializing (homeschooler BREAKS FREEEE) and I know I went overboard with FB. I'm married to an introvert, and I went to a college where introverted girls were way cool and probably more philosophical than extroverted ones. (It's kind of Straussian.) Additionally, my Myers-Briggs results indicate that I'm only like 3% extroverted. Did I answer the questions like I wanted to be an introvert, or am I actually that close to the middle, and my introverted husband just makes me look like a social butterfly? Does homeschooling out in the middle of nowhere just make moderate extroverts feel like they're on coke when they finally make some friends?
All of that is to say that I'm kind of confused about how much it's okay for me to need other people.
So when I dial back the socialization, I notice that I get serious about books and stuff. I say, very explicitly and conversationally, to myself, "Hey! I'm having more interesting thoughts! I'm sustaining reflection for longer! I'm getting good at Latin! I'm reading large chunks of philosophy! I'm communing with the mind of Rousseau! I'm achieving inner peace! This is awesome.... I have to tell somebody about this."
That makes me feel weak. Why can't I find value in something without seeking someone else's opinion about it? On the other hand, I feel like I will shrivel up and die without camaraderie and context (which I do get from my husband, but a marriage is not the same thing as a College.) Is that personality or a problem? It's oft repeated that our virtues and vices are sides of the same coin. A strong desire to talk about things that I'm thinking about might not just be a reflex developed from a FB addiction.
What do you six or seven people think? There I go again.